robcham:

This is a repost of an old post which I deleted some time ago. I’m not sure if it was because of regret or embarrassment, but this made it on 9gag so I guess that’s about as weird as it can get for something like this that’s so dang wimpy and personal to be exposed in front of so many people on 9gag who now know me as a sissy fag. So, I guess I’d just repost it here since it would make sense that I would post it again despite how weird and awkward it must be for anyone who reads my blog. Women everywhere would probably cringe at this or something. The reaction depends.

I myself cringe at it. I mean look at it. It is something to be somewhat hate yet somewhat feel like okay, that’s… okay. I guess. It’s very weird. I hate this yet also feel like it’s still that weird part of me.

When I made this, it was really an outlet for some weird frustrated emotions of feeling that way, of feeling like you shouldn’t even try any more because you knew that it was over, or that it was not working out, that you would accept defeat because you really didn’t know what to do and instead of choosing to make everything worse or somehow you knew that you have screwed up so badly and things are shit. This was indeed a horrible way to show those feelings seeing how I posted it on the internet for the world to see. 

It was all a very strange time in my life.